Referral?

Our pediatrician, who is intimately familiar with adoptions as God would have it, has reviewed our prospective referral's file.  He said that she looks great!  There was a part where the translation listed her heart rhythm as "illegible" and he wanted that cleared up, but other than that he said there were no concerns.  However, I just didn't have any peace.  There were quite a few "small" things that bothered me.  One is that her weight was insanely low when they found her.  3 kg, so 6.6 pounds, when they found her.  They estimated that she was already 8 months old!  Can you imagine?!  I just can't wrap my mind around that and there's a mental block preventing me from trying too hard to imagine what she must have looked like at that time!  The other is that her nose and mouth just don't "look" right to me.  I know that sounds shallow.  But, after having a hidden mental illness last time, I guess I am extra sensitive to the possibility of mental problems.  There are 5 pictures of her face and every one makes me think that she just "looks" like she likely has some sort of retardation.  (Also I've always been super sensitive to people who can't close their mouths and she doesn't have her mouth closed in a single picture, so I'm sure that doesn't help)  The biggest problem though is that she is a Hep. B carrier.  We did not have that in our list of acceptable needs.  I talked with the doctor at length about this and he assured me that her numbers weren't too bad.  He said that it looked like her mom had Hep B and so that's how this girl had it in her system, but he saw no evidence that this little girl had actually ever had the disease herself and that she, in fact, likely never could because her antibody levels were so high.  (CRAZY high!!)  While I was talking with him, I didn't even think to ask how this would potentially impact our family or her as a wife and potential mother.  I was just concerned with those numbers and whether the disease could ever come out of dormancy in her.  After researching online, though, it looks like something we aren't really prepared to handle.  It would mean additional vaccines for all of us (and our kids just got a ton to meet US standards) and we would have to tread carefully around any of her blood, saliva, and even tears!  Blood I could handle, saliva maybe, but tears?!  Yikes!!  Then there's the high possibility of her infecting her husband and passing it to children (or at least making them carriers as well).  That's just too much for us.  I called our agency and told them that she is a Hep B carrier and our agent freaked out.  She couldn't believe she had missed that and apologized.  She agreed that our family couldn't handle that and she had no problems with us turning her down.  She was confident that there was another family out there for her and is committed to searching for the right child for us.  So, here we are.  Still waiting for our daughter to cross our paths.  I have a feeling it won't be long now!  :-)